From the recording Love and Let Go
This is a song I wrote for myself, and upon writing it I had no intention of putting it on the album.
It is a song about my own personal journey (continuing on from what I outlined in the explanation for “Strong”), where I could suddenly see how much I had been sleep walking my entire life. I had wasted hours of my life (even while Jamie was alive) worrying about outcomes. I had felt so anxious and out of control at times and I was always searching for more. It’s a strange thing that when you reach your own depths of despair, it’s like you have nowhere else to go… you’ve reached rock bottom! For me, it was the Wake Up call I needed to finally realise that if I wanted to move forward, I had to accept, surrender and Let Go.
It was a Wake Up call that helped me to see that the only person who could ease my suffering and create my life, was me. The song outlines the image of people ‘waiting in line’, as I could see on my own journey I had spent a lifetime ‘waiting.’ Waiting to be happy, waiting to be rich, waiting, always waiting for the next thing, and then the next and then the next, never really stopping to take it all in and be grateful. I came to learn that the only one who had the power to transform this whole experience into something positive, was me. I could continue to live as a victim for the rest of my life, or I could choose to take back control and steer my life in the direction I wanted. I had finally woken up!
I decided to play it as my closing song at the Launch Party for my initial Kickstarter Campaign, to share the positive side of my journey with my close friends and family. I was overwhelmed by the positive response it received, and surprised how many people commented that they felt it had a place on the album.
I decided to add it, in the hope that by sharing some of the positive things I learnt on my journey, it might unlock the key for some other bereaved parents and families.
I’d like to stress, in no way is this song intended to speak to any other bereaved parent, and ask them to Wake Up. It is purely based on my own journey, as I ask myself to Wake Up. Grief is a very personal thing, and individuals experience it very differently. I’d ask you to honour your own path of grief, be kind on yourself and don’t compare your own journey to anyone else’s… you are doing AMAZING!
Well I’ve been walking around with my eyes half closed, for thirty something years,
Playing the part, living like a sheep with those imaginary fears.
It’s time for me to wake up, wake up to myself.
Stop believing in this illusion, and break free from my cell.
Cause I’ve been caged for too long, focusing on what’s wrong,
never really knowing who I am, or where I came from.
And I’ve been waiting in line, telling myself I am fine.
Waiting for my sweet life to begin, in its’ own sweet time.
Well it’s time, it’s time…
To wake up, wake up, it’s time for you to wake up.
Wake up, wake up girl, haven’t you had enough.
And break free, break free, don’t you know that what you believe you see.
Wake up, wake up girl, it’s time to be all that you can be, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Well there’s a time and a place for the sceptical mind and that time was yesterday,
I don’t wanna hear another word, my eyes are open all the way.
It’s time for me to speak out, say what I really mean,
stop doing it for everybody else and start doing it for me.
It’s all about that good vibration, it really is the most important thing in your life.
So keep it coming that sweet sensation, accept, surrender and just give up the fight.
Because the time, is just right.
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh,
It’s time for you to wake up